"Disheveled Saint," by Brian Kershisnik |
Today is the national day on writing. So here are my
thoughts about why writing matters: Story is the heart of writing, and stories
are the food we live on from the time we are very young. They are the crumbs
dropped from the beaks of our mothers into our open, eager mouths as we nestle
into our pillows and words flow over us, creating strange images in our minds
and mysterious stirrings in our souls. These stories become a part of us and
create our worldview. Each life is a story composed of all the stories that
have fed it. When I was young, I would ask my mother to tell me stories, and
she would. When she was tired, she would say this: “I’ll tell you a story of
Jack and Norie, and now my story’s begun. I’ll tell you another of Jack and his
brother, and now my story is done.” And I would groan. “Please, mom.” And she
would smile and kiss my forehead. Now I am a father, and when I am tired, I
tell my children very short stories—one sentence stories about the births of
butterflies or the flights of whales or the smells of gardens. And sometimes
they groan. And sometimes they smile. A story does not have to be elaborate,
but we are creatures that crave narrative.
One of my favorite writers suggests that perhaps God
invented time so that there might be narrative: creation, fall, atonement.
Incarnation, resurrection, return. Hope and miracle. These are all stories. And
stories connect us. They are a form of communion. In a very real way, we share stories. While I took the
sacrament today, my son held up to my attention a piece of bread roughly the
shape of Chile. It was the longest, biggest piece in the tray, and I could tell
it felt like victory to him. He smiled and said, “Dad, do you remember the
story of the Last Supper? It was Jesus’s last night and He broke the bread and
gave them water.” (We are Mormons, and so we remember the wine as water, you
know?) “Yep.” “And then He died.” “Yep.” “And do you remember the story of the
five loaves of bread and the two fishes? Jesus fed five thousand people.” “Yep.”
These are stories we share, of the bright, gentle Son of God wandering around
the plains of Judea, feeding people. We ate these stories together, my son and
I, as we chewed small pieces of bread and sipped from small cups of water.
We share the story of the young curious farm boy who
wandered into the woods and cracked open the heavens, who talked with God and
spent the rest of his life telling people that God wanted to talk with them,
too. Who gave his life for his witness that God is not so different from us, or
we are not so different from Him. This story made a people. We are part of that
people. It continues to make us, to teach us our value in the eyes of the Holy
One of Israel.
I tell my children stories so they will know me. One recent
Sunday night I asked them if they wanted a mission story. “Yeah!” shouted my
two oldest. “I want a fight story,” Oliver said. “Do you want a mission fight
story?” I asked. “Yeah!” they all three said. I told them the story of one of
my mission companions who grew up in Mexico City and whose brothers were car
thieves for a living. He told how he sometimes rode in the backseat of the
stolen cars as a young boy and how he remembered them speeding across the
border into the Distrito Federal, being pursued by police officers. This
companion’s name was Elliott, and he had seen some things, let’s say. The
companion he had before me had said something Elliott didn’t like, and Elliott
punched him in the face. That’s how he and I became companions. That was the
fight I had promised to tell my children about. But the story was really about
how much this kid taught me about love. We would get on our bikes and ride past
all the houses and out through the countryside and stop on bridges and watch
turtles sunning themselves on rocks. Some of my favorite memories of Mexico are
those bike rides with Elliott, sunning ourselves like turtles on rocks. But
when we went far enough out, we found very small communities of outlying
people. And one day we knocked at the fence of a small house with a big yard
and lots of chickens, and we met Claudia. She was blind and she had two
daughters, and they craved the stories we told about God’s love and God’s
attentiveness to human cries. About pillars of light and the warm voice of God.
They were baptized and each week made the long journey to the church in the
city to hear more of these stories. I left that area shortly after this. I did
not speak Spanish very well then, and I did not think this little family would
remember me. Elliott was the one who taught them the stories, really. Elliott
was the one who loved them so very much. But about two years later, I returned
to Mexico with my parents, and we drove a car out to the little fence around
Claudia’s house and banged on the fence. Claudia came feeling her way out of
the house. “Hola, hermana!” I cried. “Taggart?” she said, a smile slowly
creeping across her worn face. “How did you know?” I asked. “How could I forget
the voice of the boy who taught me the stories of God?” As I told my children
this story, I cried. Six-year-old Emerson began to cry as well. And then Lydia.
Oliver looked at us, and said, “Stop crying!”
So we write to tell stories. Because stories matter. Stories
matter more than we can put into words. So we tell stories. And we write so
that the stories do not die with us. We write to connect, to commune. That is
why we write.
I'm crying too. Don't tell Oliver. I think I need to go write something. Thanks.
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